Sunday, February 20, 2011
Is all this world can offer, it seems.
My soul is torn between two places
Of worldly desire and heavenly spaces.
My life's in shambles, how will it mend?
My broken heart, who will defend?
A tattered road, so cold, so long
I need Your comfort, Lord make me strong.
I've tried and tried to no avail
Without Your help My efforts fail.
You search me, You know me, You love me still
Throughout this life Your truth's been revealed.
Your yoke is easy and Your burden light
Be anxious for nothing, I can trust in Your might.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
It's funny; after a long visit to CA, I couldn't wait to come back home. Now I feel a little sad to be back. This extended visit allowed me to spend a lot of time with my niece and nephew and I enjoyed every minute of it.
School starts next week, so that will definitely keep me busy, along with work. Been hoping for a promotion...we'll see what happens.
There is a huge list (in my head) of things I need to do/accomplish; now if I could just write them down.
My brother Joseph is planning to move out here in January. That will be challenging, but very rewarding as well. I am looking forward to him staying with me and starting school out here. He is very talented and I know he will succeed in whatever he decides to do.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I am so thankful to have you in my life
You showed me persistence, you taught me to strive.
There were so many times you could have given up
It wasn’t always easy, but you stayed because of love.
You told me “hang in there, things will get better”
Those words remain in my heart, even twenty years later.
A man of few words, describes you so well
The things you have spoken are engraved in my soul.
Childhood was difficult, it was painful, you know
With so much responsibility, too fast I had to grow.
I missed out on so much life, but now I can see
It kept me out of trouble and taught me to be.
Diligent in your work, to provide for us all
Didn’t complain or grumble, but always stood tall.
Your perseverance and strength does not go unseen
I misjudged those qualities as you being mean.
You only did your best, did what you could
Now I am older, I see it was good.
You are truly an inspiration, to our family
Revered and well-regarded, especially to me.
It’s funny how things turn out, I never thought I would have
Felt so much respect and honor to call you “my dad.”
I love you Dad,
© Andrea Rodriguez
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Saturday, April 3, 2010
How I’ve longed for you
The gentleness you bring,
Like a breeze, takes my breath away
Your color, so brilliant
Shine through for all to see
Oh how I miss you when you are away
But I know for long you can’t stay
For every year I await you
Anticipating the beauty you bring
It consumes the very fabric of my being
To know that I was created
To see you, to touch you, to smell you
To know you in all your splendor
The joy you bring is breathtaking
Causing my heart to tremble
Seeing you, touching you, smelling you
Everywhere I go, I am astonished
I’m in awe…
You are beautiful
Everything you bring is beautiful
I delight in my Creator
For your very existence is His creation
Saturday, February 6, 2010
It’s been real tough
I’ve been through hard times
And seen a lot of stuff
It hasn’t always been easy
This you all know
I’ve traveled down roads
No man dare go
I fought the good fight
I won the race
I’ve served my country
And now I stand face to face
With the One who gave it all
So that we may have life
A life everlasting
Without pain, without strife
Throughout this life
I’ve found Great Love
One that’s not temporal
But to forever be in awe of
I’ve seen God’s glory
What an indescribable sight
I can’t wait for you to join me
Until then, I’ll hold tight
I hope you’ll recognize me
Now that I’m whole
I’ve got a new body
But I’m still the same soul
You should see this place
It’s too wonderful for words
Everything is beautiful
It reminds me of “my girls”
My dear family
My daughters and wife
You’ve given me joy,
You’ve given me life
Though I’m happy here
I miss you, and love you by far
Especially my darling
My sweet Morningstar
In Loving Memory of James Paul Bremer January 25, 1952-December 30, 2009
By: Andréa Rodriguez
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
This is the first pic that all 6 of us kids have ever taken!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Lisa had a week of freedom since her hubby took the kids to Indiana. She wanted to go to the mountains, so I suggested we go camping. So on Thursday we headed out to Stone Mountain and it was absolutely gorgeous! From the time we entered the park there were deer coming from everywhere to greet us. I've never seen anything like it before. We set up our site and really roughed it out like champs!
Friday we went for a hike. It was an amazing site to see. I proudly hiked to the summit and figured we were done...
I know about the "Trail of Tears," but I had experienced the trail of MY tears. We went down to a beautiful waterfall and I thought that was it until we spotted people at the very bottom. We then proceeded to walk down to the creek. The walk down wasn't so bad. It was nice to get our feet wet since it was hot outside. The water was ice cold, but it was refreshing. The view was perfect.
Our friend Tammy was going to meet us at the site, so it was time to head back up. OKAY...I have never felt so exhausted, dehydrated and overexerted that I almost passed out! Lisa, being in the great shape she is in couldn't understand why I was so tired. It wouldn't have been so bad if she would've packed more than 3 waters; 1 for me, 1 for her and 1 for the dog! I drank the dog's water.
So I finally made it back up to the top. After I got past the stairs I was OK. We got back to the site and Tammy came shortly after. After resting a good bit we went to another area where we could swim. It was a good, fun time. I can't wait to go back!
Friday, May 22, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
I didn't say anything at first, but at the end I gave him some pictures, which he received well. I tried to talk to him and tell him I was sorry about his mom and he listened for a minute, then turned his back. OK. I have to admit I was a little upset at first, but this was his mom's funeral, so I just left him alone and said goodbye.
I realized for the first time in two years that I have been holding onto guilt and shame. Why? I know my faults, but I have been making excuses for him and his behavior, as if it were all my fault. I was seeing a counselor before and after this all began and she told me to stop making excuses, see the light and to walk in freedom and truth. I thought, "I'm not making any excuses, and what is she talking about 'walk in freedom?'" I am walking in freedom. I know the scriptures! She didn't tell me to forgive because I am, oh so forgiving. Walk in freedom. Hmmm.
I think I get it now. Not just for me, but for him. I do, (scratch that) DID make excuses for his decisions and behavior. But now I think I'll take my counselor's advice and walk in freedom and truth. I do not accept guilt, shame, nor do I accept full responsibility. That is not mine to carry.
I also realized that he is still in bondage to me. He has so much anger and unforgiveness in his heart toward me that he is enslaved to that. It made me sad to see that because I want him to have a life filled with joy and freedom, but the only way he can have that is if he's right with the Lord. My constant prayer for him is that he will experience and encounter the love, joy and peace of the Lord.
Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Rom. 5:1
I watched a good movie tonight, "7 Pounds." I like unpredictable movies that leave you thinking about your life and the difference you make on others' lives.
Have a lot on my mind, including the recent death of my mother-in-law. A lot of things happening too fast to keep up with, but I'm still here...
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I am finishing another lovely semester of school. I am being a little sarcastic, but in a way I am a little sad. I've really enjoyed some of these classes and one in particular. I never thought I'd be so interested in Biology, but my teacher rocks! He makes learning so much fun. He is actually on vacation right now, but he had an assignment for us last night. We came to class signed in and another teacher came in and told us to go home and look on his website for our assignment. Instead of going home me and a couple other ladies went to the computer lab to pull up our assignment. This is what is says, "Research, print out, and bring to the final a one-pager of your favorite Sexually Transmitted Disease (STD)" When I first read that I thought OMG! "Favorite STD?" Ok...I can tell you my favorite flavor of ice cream, or my favorite season, or TV show, but I'm not quite sure I have a "favorite" STD! He is so crazy, LOL!
This lovely plate, looking thingy is the egg; notice the glitter, that's because we as women are jewels and should be treasured for all we have to go through...after all the fun of fertilization is over!
Here is the not-so-lovely sperm
Thanks Renee for assembling my sperm!
Monday, December 8, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Sunday, August 31, 2008
I've been tagged by my blogging buddy Edie from Rich Gifts
I’m supposed to share an Alphabet story, the A to Z 's of me...so...here goes but I'm not looking too exciting here.
Attached or Single? Attached, but it’s complicated!
Best Friend? Samara…YAY Samara YAY…HOLLER at your sister Girl! LOL
Cake or Pie? Pie
Day of Choice? They’re all the same at this point
Essential Item? My computer
Flavour of Ice cream? Vanilla Bean
Gummy Bears of Worms? Worms
Hometown? Hayward, CA…now in NC somewhere
Indulgences? Chocolate Truffles from Trader Joe's
January or July? January, I like cold weather
Last Movie I saw in a Theater? Mamma Mia…here I go again…my my..how could I resist you
Middle Name? Rose
Number of Siblings? 5
Oranges or Apples? Oranges
Phobia or Fear? Phobia...dirty hands
Quote? Can’t change the past, but you can certainly learn from it!
Reason to Smile? A new day!
Season? Fall…I love harvest
Tag five more: Got Health? Drink Offering Sweet Violets The "Devine" Life Zac Attack!
Unknown Fact About Me? I like cheese and celery sticks.
Vegeterian or Oppressor of Animals? God told us to eat meat, I'm obedient….this one is Edie’s and I’m sticking with it!
Worst Habit? Doing too many things at once.
Xrays or Ultrasounds? OH, it's so hard to pick the one I like best…
Your favourite Food? Meat and all sorts of fruits.
Friday, August 29, 2008
This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine,
This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine,
Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine!
I used to sing this song when I was young. It was cute, it was fun. It was only a song, right?
That's what you think when you don't have any clue who God is.
Well, I now have some understanding of who He is, which means I am responsible for allowing this little light of mine to shine.
Do I always allow it? Not really.
Do I desire to allow it? You betchya!
At times it's a little difficult...especially when I get angry. That doesn't happen too often, it takes a lot for me to get angry, but when I do watch out! I tend do blow out my candle at that point.
Not good. That is probably the best time to keep my light shining. It's not all about the good times. It's about the bad times, the times in between, the times of hurt, the times of shame, the painful times, and currently, the broke times!
What good am I if I am only letting my light shine in the good times? Not very useful for the kingdom, that for sure!
Lord Help me to shine Your light in all times and seasons of my life. Not for my benefit, but for the benefit of others. If I am supposed to be a representation of Your Son, there are things that definitely need to change. Search me and change me.
You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Saturday, August 9, 2008
At this time, my greatest passion is for my family. Not so much my siblings (they’ve always been my passion), but my parents. Five years ago, I could’ve cared less about them, but God has completely changed my heart toward them. While changing my heart and healing wounds, He was (is) also changing their lives.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Monday I will begin my clinicals at CVMC. I'm looking forward to that, but why I picked 5:30AM-2:00PM for my hours, I don't know.
The following Monday I will start three more classes for the fall semester at MCC, and in September I will add another. I think I like to torture myself...what do you think???
Saturday, August 2, 2008
One thing I appreciate about my friendships is that there is complete transparency. I appreciate that my friends are not all the same. I have deep friendships with a variety of people that are all over and personalities that others don't care for.
I love it that I can be 3,000 miles away from my closest friends, yet they don't seem so far because of the closeness we share. We talk on the phone, we write, sometimes we write each other while talking on the phone (pointless, I know). My best friend and I will stay on the phone while looking at the same things online and just read lame sayings to each other and crack jokes.
I love it that when I am truly in need of something my friends will rush over to help me in any way they can.
It's very easy for me to make friends, but on the flip side, I do have reservations. I need to know, somehow, that I can trust you. It isn't difficult for me to trust, but give me something to build on. I need to know you're interested in me in order to let the friendship grow. I don't mind acquaintances, but there's not much fun in that.
I like to be open, and I can't do that with superficial friends. I tend to get bored of them.
Friday, August 1, 2008
Thanks to all who have been praying!
Please continue to pray for comfort, and peace that only comes from God...the peace that passes all understanding.
I know Heidi and her family are grieving, BUT they are also rejoicing because they know where Hannah is.
I can only hope to have a portion of their kind of faith.
We love you Hannah and you will be terribly missed!
Hannah Welker Oct 12, 1995 - July 20, 2008
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am." (John 14:1-3)
Hannah Glenn Welker, beautiful and wise beyond her 12 years, led her brief life by amazing and loving example. She was nurturing and had an incredible sense of peace and joy about her that left a lasting impression on every person she touched. Hannah was gifted to her parents Blaine and Heidi Welker of Fremont on October 12, 1995. She was the beloved "baby sister" to her three incredible siblings, Katy, Sarah and Kyle.
At a very young age, Hannah excitedly gave her heart and life to Jesus. At the tender age of 3, Hannah asked to be baptized. She found she enjoyed the proclamation of baptism so much that she would spontaneously request to be baptized on multiple occasions, saying "It makes me feel clean inside and close to Jesus!" Hannah took great joy in personally praying for the hurting and anyone needing a healing touch, and in bringing laughter by sharing her very unique brand of humor. Hannah enjoyed attending Lasting Heritage Academy Christian School, and would have entered the seventh grade in the fall. She joyfully attended Bridges Community Church in Fremont, and also very much loved her church family at Harvest House Church in Fremont.
Hannah was an avid soccer player and passionately loved playing with her North Valley San Jose Thunder Soccer team. Hannah gathered a multitude of friends both old and young over her 7 years of playing soccer all over Northern California. Hannah's life epitomized a daily walk with many loved ones and with God. On Sunday July 20th, Hannah went on her familiar daily walk with her Lord and continued walking onto the Streets of Gold in Heaven. Hannah had looked forward to donating her long beautiful hair to Locks of Love, and the family encourages all to donate to this worthwhile cause. Visit www.locksoflove.org for more information.
In addition to her parents and siblings, Hannah will live forever in the hearts of her grandparents Vic and Janet Welker, Karin Woll, and Ron and Pep Woll; great-grandmother Ella Linder; aunts and uncles Melinda Morgan, Brad and Tracy Welker, Wendy Espeleta, Kim Chairez, Kaarin and John Doyle, Erik and Beth Woll, Korisa Woll, Paul Chairez, Gerald Nelson, Shelly Fortier, Dave Morgan, and Patty Welker; cousins Malia, Paula, James, Tyler, Emily, Michael, Alex, Jeremy, Megan, Randy, Alisha, Tyler, Jessica, Jacob, Kate, Jay, Grace, and Adam; godparents Pete and Tanya Castro; many extended family members; her amazing North Valley San Jose Thunder family; and many beloved friends, young and old, whose lives she touched. She joins her uncles Bryan Welker and Halbert Espeleta, her aunt Rhonda Welker, and dear kindred spirit Jack Sabin, as well as other loving family members who went on to glory before her.
A service celebrating Hannah's brief and lovely time here on earth will be held Tuesday, August 5th, beginning at 3:47pm (47 was Hannah's favorite number), at Bridges Community Church, 505 Driscoll Road, Fremont. A memorial fund has been established. Gifts made out to the Hannah Glenn Welker Memorial Fund may be sent to Bridges Community Church, 505 Driscoll Road, Fremont CA 94538. Fremont Chapel of the Roses (510) 797-1900
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Although the Olympics will not begin until August 8th, he and the rest of the students from across the world will spend their time practicing and performing in different locations, such as, Beijing, Tianjing, Shang Hai, The Great Wall, and the Tiananmen Square "Forbidden City, (which will be a historic event).
There are a total of 2008 students participating in this event, and all represent different colors of the rings (Olympic symbol), known as hubs…i.e. Red Hub = Americans, Gold Hub = China.
Joseph and his team have been practicing profusely for over a year, including vacations. His summer vacation, so far, has been dedicated for this occasion, while putting in about 20 hours a week.
It’s amazing how hard they work, and make it look like so much fun. I can’t begin to imagine how in the world one can dance while playing an instrument. There are so many dynamics involved in the process.
You basically have to memorize your music (not too hard), dance, count, and make sure you don’t get in anyone’s way while you’re doing all that (that’s a little too much for my taste).
I am so proud of you Joseph. I pray for the hand of God to cover you and keep you safe and in good health…and have lots of fun. I love you!
Here is an article written 3 days ago about Joseph's High School:
Bay Area Band Heading To China For Historic Concert
POSTED: 10:26 pm PDT July 25, 2008
UNION CITY -- A group of Bay Area high school students is preparing to make history next month, when they will perform as part of the Olympic Orchestra in Beijing.
Band and color guard members of Union City's James Logan High School have been invited to perform in Tiananmen Square. The invitation is historic because it's the first time a foreign group has performed in the square.
The students are taking part in festivities leading up to the summer games.
Organizers say the band was picked for the ground-breaking concert based on their reputation. They will be joined by two other bands from the United States including a high school band from Modesto.
Students from Australia and China also are taking part in the concert.
The almost 200 students leave for China on Monday and Tuesday, taking five separate flights to get there. They will perform on August 3, but will spend two weeks touring China.
Organizers say this is not the first time the group has traveled to perform at an impressive venue. They performed at Carnegie Hall three years ago and at Disney Hall last year.
Before they take off, the band is hosting a free bon voyage concert at 7 p.m. Saturday at James Logan High School Pavilion.
Copyright 2008 by KTVU.com.
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I love ladybugs! I have two ladybug pillows, a pin to wear on my blazer, magnets, jewelry, and countless socks. In fact, it’s almost a rule that whenever I spot a pair of ladybug socks I buy it!
I never had tea parties as a little girl, but enjoy them as an adult. Usually when I babysit, I will bust out the teapots and cups and make scones.
I am definitely OCD when it comes to washing my hands. Sometimes my hands get so dried out and cracked because I wash them too much.
I have wondered in the past, but now for sure believe I am ADD. It is very difficult for me to stay focused on one thing at a time. Sometimes I will be talking to someone and just walk away in the middle of the conversation…I know…rude. I hate that about me. I never clean one thing at a time; I notice something else and start cleaning it, without finishing what I was previously cleaning. I don’t even eat one thing at a time either. Sometimes I mix my food up.
Since I’m on the subject of food, I am embarrassed to say that when I am really enjoying my meal, I kiss it and tell it “I love you.” I know I’m weird.
I have a tendency to go shopping in my pajamas. Not just plain looking ones that look like regular attire, it’s usually penguins or snowflakes.
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Notes of Sister Precious
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Saturday, July 26, 2008
Triumph Over Heartache
A friend of mine suggested this title for me and I would have to agree. But I came up with a few myself:
Get Over It!
I know what you’re thinking; it seems a little insensitive, but it’s not what it sounds like. There are going to be trials and tests in life, and sometimes big mountains. I am like anyone else when I am faced with hardships; I get scared, but instead of just standing still and looking at how big that mountain is, why not just get over it? You never know what's waiting for you on the other side.
Go on with Your Bad self
Live life to the fullest; don’t just “hang in there,” thrive! There is always going to be someone who does things better than you, but why let that stop you from using your gifts and talents? Be who God created you to be; someone great.
Keep On Keeping On
Never stop growing. No matter how bad your childhood was, no matter how messed up your current situation, we as believers have been given great tools to make life count. We have a great Teacher, and a great God.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I went to a friends house this evening and left Sophia inside. Usually when I come home she is sitting on the window seal waiting for me. As soon as I open the door, she makes a run for it.
I was thinking of all sorts of ways I could prevent her from dashing out the door, when finally I arrive home and see her waiting for me OUTSIDE! How she got out I had no idea.
Well...I kept the windows slightly open to let the air cool down my apt. and soon realized she popped the screen off the window and jumped out!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
My aunt (70 + years old), cousin Linda, and friend Pat came with me to help me get all my sticks. I have to admit, I was a little embarrassed that my great-aunt came in a motorized vehicle and with an oxygen tank, ready and willing for me to stick a needle in her skin. I wasn't embarrassed of her. I was afraid that people would think it as elderly abuse. But hey...she was a willing vessel...literally :)
She was so excited to be there for me, and I was happy to have her as well. I'm telling you, she was quite the trooper, letting several students stick her. It was definitely an evening to remember!
She was driving home from a soccer tournament with two of her daughters. The tire of her minivan blew out on the interstate, causing the car to hit the median, which then caused the car to flip several times. She has a collapsed lung and is in intensive care. One daughter has some injuries; however, the youngest didn’t survive.
I am really struggling with this whole messed up situation. I couldn’t go to sleep after I heard the news; I cried so hard it made me sick to my stomach.
Heidi is being heavily sedated because of the pain, but I know the pain of knowing her daughter didn’t survive outweighs the physical pain she is feeling. I can’t believe this happened.
Please keep the Welker family in your prayers, as they are facing a very difficult and painful time.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
4. Work, school
5. Muah :)
This is how I think it should be, although I tend to mix it up a little. Lately I've been a little selfish and have made it all about #5. I have to admit that it feels pretty darn good at times.
My priorities don't always match up, but one thing's for sure; when God is first, everything else in my life lines up.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I can relate to these women, and more, on so many levels, however, the characteristic I own that I don't like is that of Martha...the worry wart. Don't get me wrong, she is a woman of great faith and I admire the close relationship she had with Christ and her family, but I have a difficult time being so pre-occupied at times that I don't relax and enjoy life. I enjoy entertaining people, having them over for a meal, playing games and watching a movie. My problem is I have a hard time sitting down and eating my meal with guests because while I eat I'm already cleaning up. I am getting better. This was a real issue for me and even affected my marriage in some ways. I think I get this "quality" from my father. He has always been such a hard worker and that has stuck with me. I am constantly doing something, whether it be working, cleaning, homework, talking on the phone, or e-mailing. Even when I'm not doing something I think of all the things I have to do, which wears me out!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
OK...I guess I'm finally getting tired now.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Friday, July 4, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I love you and hope you have a wonderful birthday!